A Higher Calling

Wow! October was such a whirlwind of a month for me. I spent 7 days in Orlando and 2 of the 7 were very relaxing, the others were work as usual.
October was also very trying, spiritually. I felt like the enemy did a "sneak attach" right toward the end of the month. Major drama on the job scene that left me shocked, however, God proved himself faithful. I'm reminded of the scripture in Isaiah 43:2, 5 "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you...When you walk through the fire you will not be burned...Do not be afraid, for I am with you...". Thank you, Jesus for your ever-present help.
Leadership is a crazy thing! If you're destined for it, you can't avoid it. It seems to approach you at every turn in your life. I think I've been trying to avoid it most of my life because I realize the work and sacrifice that comes with it. Only now, have I begun to accept it...embrace it. That must be the "let go and let God" part. I feel like I've tried it all...leading from the sidelines doesn't work, that only frustrates the designated leader. Ignoring it doesn't work because people seem to place you in front anyway. Being silent doesn't work because then people wonder why you're so quiet and force you to speak. It also gives people the impression that you know something...often times I don't...I'm just "chillin'". I realize more and more the God-given gifts that God has given me and the purpose for which he has for them...to that I say, "Amen."...so be it. No more running or hiding.
As one who is destined for leadership, I often watch those in leadership. What I see as good, I attempt to pattern after, what I see as bad often disappoints or frustrates me. (Father God, help me to know what to do with those feelings.) God, help me to be the best leader that I can be. Help me to have humility when my shortcomings are exposed (by You or others). Help me to submit to the authority you have placed over me, despite their own shortcomings. Help me to pray for my leadership with love and compassion. Father, your mercy is overwhelming and your grace is unfathomable. I don't deserve anything you've given me, so what you've given, help me to use it to YOUR glory.